Why did it took me this long to write a post on the blog? Even though there was so much that occurred during these past few months in my life, I still didn’t have the urge to write. Nothing was in my head at the moment. I couldn’t think of anything or anyone. No current events, celebrity news, relationship topics, inspirational point of views, nothing. Summer ended and I didn’t even get a chance to tell or show you my summer highlights. I was so busy trying to figure things out-putting pieces together to things that was never meant to be put back together in the first place. I wanted to come back on the blog with a big BANG, making sure everything was perfect but in reality it was far from perfect. My love life, social life and personal life was falling to pieces and I hated the fact that I couldn’t do anything about it but break-down. I’ve been so frustrated and I tried to hide my true feelings behind my smile but deep down, I was hurt. Nobody really knows the struggle(s) behind my smile. I don’t waste my time trying to explain because nowadays, people love to base your life off of what they see on social media or from word of mouth. Some people could care less of how you’re feeling and would only listen to your downfalls just to feel better about themselves (Misery loves company).
I decided to write on the blog because I felt like this was the right time to express how I feel at this very moment. All of the pieces that was falling miserably in my life (love, social, and personal life), has been put back together with a simple prayer. I took the time to grow spiritually and reconnected my attention on God. I worked on having patience, the ability to communicate with others efficiently and to be able to love others unconditionally. I realized that I was on a work in progress to become a better person instead of a bitter person. I’m 24 years old, turning twenty(Fine) in December. At this stage, I’m not where I wanna be and I haven’t accomplish my ultimate goal on my bucket-list. But guess what? I’m not stressing about it because I’m STILL working on it. I haven’t given up and I won’t ever give up until I reach it, there’s no if’s, buts or maybe about it, I WILL achieve not one but ALL of my goals in life. (I taught myself to think positively in everything I do and say as well).
I’m here to let you know that you can achieve your goals in life. Everyone have a purpose on this earth and have some type of talent or gift to share with the world.
If you have a passion to do something in life and you think it’s too late to pursue it because of the lack of faith you have in yourself, then you’re right…just like the rest of them who doubted you. It is too late. You will never be somebody in life and you will always be a quitter. Now, you can take that as it is or you can prove yourself and the rest of them WRONG. Once you prove yourself wrong, promise yourself that you won’t ever ever EVER doubt yourself like that again. No matter how long it may take you to reach your goals or the amount of time it has been since you lost your 1st love, it’s never too late to pick it back up again. Pick up that pencil, microphone, book, comb, dumbbells, whatever it is that you’re good at, pick it up and just do it!
My life is not all that great but I am. I am GREAT. I accepted the things I can’t change and adapted along to the changes that surrounded me. I felt pain that made me realize that somewhere in this cold world, there’s a little peace of relief awaiting. The moment you finally let go and exhale, will be the moment you find that peace. What I’m really trying to say is stop fighting with yourself. You’re going to be more than O.K and you are going to do just fine in this book called Life. Don’t worry about the things that didn’t go your way or if you lost your chance at an opportunity. Self-love is EVERYTHING. When you have love for yourself, there’s a strong connection of JOY within you and no one can take that away from you. Not even the person who broke your heart and claim you will never love again. What they don’t know is that the love you shared with THEM is gone but not the love you have for yourself. The love you have in general will always be there. That’s that type of love when you could look at your ex and feel no type of remorse or regret.
During my break away from the blog, I realized that I am not perfect and I’m not trying to be. I don’t care how others may feel about me or how others think of me as a person. I am happy with my life and I thank God for all the ups and down I’ve been through. When it comes down to the truth, I-Me, Myself and I mattered the most. My needs come first and being HAPPY is my 1st priority before anything else in this world. I learned that everybody is not going to like you for who you are and trying to fit in will only leads to destruction of your own individuality. Followers will be followers but for myself, I choose to be a leader. I’m not going to settle for what the world have, I’m going to settle for more than what the world can’t handle. I want it all. You have to mean it in order to believe it and then you can achieve it. Find the perfect in the imperfection of yourself and work with it.